Monday, February 11, 2008

"Senioritis"

I just returned from our Indiana Pastor's Wives Retreat! It was wonderful as always! I just love spending time with other pastor's wives. We are like our own little sorority. We all understand each other so much!

While we were there, I led a session on jewlery making. We made my 23rd Psalm bracelet. We also made bracelets to be taken to the Sudan to be sold in the market to help "Hands of Mercy" (More on that in another post.) I talked about my jewelry business all weekend. These women are the ones who have really inspired me to quit teaching and dive into the beads! They are so loving an encouraging. Now my husband says I have "Senioritis". I came home thinking I didn't have to go back to school! I was so pumped about my business that I felt it was all so real already. I did go to school today. We had a wonderful day. I do get tomorrow off because the sky is falling, I mean we got some snow! I'll make some jewelry and maybe get the chance to post some new things!

The retreat was to start with Bible study. The woman leading the study got up and said something about how we had just gotten there and that no one really was in the mood to do a Bible study. Okay, first of all, it REALLY bugs me when people who don't even know me try to tell me how I feel. Actually, I was REALLY looking forward to Bible study. I love the deep topics that we as pastor's wives can dive into! She thought it would be better if she led us in "guided meditation". Oh brother! Okay, we had to sit still for 30 minutes or so. I don't find that relaxing at all, and this was to help us relax. Then, I had to think about myself in a field of grass with Jesus, or I had to look in a pool of water and see Jesus' face. So now I am not relaxed and I cannot "see" Jesus' face in the water. I just wanted it to end. It was NOT what I was looking forward to. Needless to say, I didn't really appreicate the "Bible study". It just made me tired and made my back hurt.

Saturday the same person was leading "Bible study". She went through a list of cute little phrases and found bible verse that she might, if she worked hard, make some sort of connection to the little corney saying. It was so disappointing. I WANTED to study God's word. I wanted to grow in knowledge and faith with my sisters in Christ. I DID NOT want to be entertained. By the way, it was not all that entertaining.

So, there, I said it. I also was able to confess my sins at the divine service for the ill feelings I was having about this situation. I did, with much joy, worship with my sisters and partake of the Lord's gifts. That was WONDERFUL!

I had a fantastic weekend. I loved chatting with my friends. Pat Nuffer, a deaconess and missionary, spoke on Saturday. She was WONDERFUL! I will tell you about her and "Hands of Mercy" in my next post. She is AMAZING!

Thanks for letting me vent. I seem to be getting in a bad habit of that. I will not complain in my next post!

4 comments:

Angie said...

O.K. if you feel like you can't complain here at your own blog, then where in the world can you do it? You go on and do what you feel you need to do. I'm sure everyone who comes here will lift you up, that is what friendship is all about, right?

Hope you are enjoying your snow day as much as we are...Dominik is having a blast with Lynn. She even watched him practice piano last night. Maybe we can add a few pictures in the journal? What do you think? or did you want only writing?

Have a great day!

Kristi Heinz said...

Pictures would be a great addition. Have fun! I am glad he and Lynn are having a wonderful time!

Thanks for your comments on the blog. I don't want to sound so negative all the time. It is just a great way for getting it out.

Jessica said...

Hi Kristi,

Welcome back and I'm glad that overall you had a good time. Don't worry about complaining! We all have to every once in a while.

Jake and Taryn said...

Sounds like a wonderful retreat!! :)